SUNSHINE

[ A PASSING MOMENT ]
what if things never changed..what if it stayed the same?

_as i was making my way out of my house,sprinting to get on the 28 bus, & finally catching a seat on the bus, i finally noticed what a beautiful day it was; the sun was gleaming, the wind was whistling, & the sapphire sky was crystal clear..



i took the time to just look outside & admire the beauty of it all, taking in what gift God had given me today; SUNSHINE.. when i finally got to my Marine Biology class today, we watched a movie about Al Gore & his efforts to change the world`s view on global warming.. i was really attentive during the movie & it really made me wonder if things on Earth will ever change back to normal & if the SUNSHINE will continue to shine forever.. of course i knew things never stay the same & that they`re always changing, as for the sunshine, it`ll disappear eventually.. and what about us? what about me? i for one hate changes. i`m the type of person who doesn`t adjust too easily because when i get comfortable with how things are, it`ll take a long time for me to adjust to new things. But God told us in the bible, that we should never get too comfortable with the way things are..especially with Earthly matters because they`ll all disappear one day...


when i was little, i use to think a lot about the future & about what would happen when i grew up. when my grandparents would no longer be here..when my parents would grow old & when my brother & i started new lives with our future family. i hated thinking about how much change would occur. i hated thinking about how much tears i would shed for losing the ones i love. most of all, i hated being scared of what changes where going to occur.. & now that i`m living in the present.. i`m 19 years old, going on 20 in October.. i am still afraid of changes.

recently i noticed how much change God has put into my life.. especially in the last year. it`s only February right now & soon it`ll be March, but so many things have changed.. friends going off to college, relatives getting married, & me, moving on with my life, wandering through my spiritual journey & making my way up to my major. after looking back at all these changes, i finally realized how HUGE change was.. but, the one thing that never changed during the changes that occurred in my life was God.


"He will comfort me Himself,
wiping the tears from my eyes."
[.revelation.twenty-onefour.]


He was always with me through all the changes, never leaving me .. not even a step behind. He held my hand through the times i was happy, mad, confused, lost, sad. He listened & slowly uncovered my prayers. He held onto me, even when i wasn`t holding on to Him. He lent me his shoulders to cry on, when i was deeply hurt & in so much pain & confusion. He forgave me when i sinned against Him, even when i didn`t beg for forgiveness. He patched up my broken heart when it shattered into a million pieces & made me smile with simple gifts like SUNSHINE. yeup. He`s been there for me.. He has ALWAYS been there for me & will always continue to be there for me.

no matter how much change goes on in my life, i know that God will never change & i`m glad that He is the stable sunshine in my life.. the HOPE that will never disappoint me :]

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