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PLEDGING.

so during the past few weeks, I have been buckling down & trying to complete all my requirements but at the same time, still have time for fun. I guess now that all my requirements are in & I have completed my final, it`s time to wait for the results & relax just a little bit... actually, NO. i have to focus fully on school now... GRRR

just a taste of some of the fun memories :]

Biggie getting caked :]


i can`t believe the pledging process is over! it went by really quicky :[

WALK AWAY

“Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.”

now it`s my turn to walk away.

REMAINING

things to do & get before completing my requirements:

[ ] LAUNCH
[ ] 5 more MZ member interviews
[ ] 9 pledge interviews
[ ] Big`s interview
[ ] 4 hours of Campus
[ ] 4 hours of Country
[ ] Pledge Fundraiser
[ ] Pledge Fellowship
[ ] Pledge Service Project
[ ] pass Final with 80%


i am almost there :]

GIVING UP

[A PASSING MOMENT]

“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.”

--Our life contains so many obstacles & turns. When things get rough & hard, giving up is an easy answer. Things just haven`t been going my way lately & although the surface of me may look fine, i am really a train wreck. School, Work & Life have become extremely difficult for me & giving up seems like an easy way out. It`s funny because when things get rough, the first thing i want to do is fight it out, but when it gets towards the middle of the battle & everything seems extremely difficult & i feel weak, it`s when i feel like giving up. In reality, I really like physical challenges because they are something I know I can push myself to be the best in, but when it comes to spiritual or emotional, then i just suck at it. There were & still are many times in my life where giving up seems like the best way to go. If I`m not good at something, why should I humiliate myself & try again just to end up with the same results?

" because maybe you do it in hopes that there will be a different outcome.."

Stress seems to be the main problem right now & perhaps the reason why I feel so weak & drained. As if I don`t have enough to worry & stress over about in school & work, now I also have to add the stress that my parents put on me in my pile. I don`t understand why my parents don`t understand me, well, at least my Mom understands me more than my Dad, but I really wish my Dad would just drop it & just listen to me instead of having me listen to him. If I don`t listen to him, it doesn`t mean that he`s not in control or that i`m going to be right & he`s going to be wrong, I just wish for one minute that he could be open-minded to how I feel & think about the situation.. BUT, one put down after another after another is just about how much I can take right now & i guess this is where giving up just feels appropriate. Honestly, I don`t want to give up on anything, especially myself, but maybe I should just let go instead. I wish I could let go of the worries & the stress. I wish that I could let go of all my feelings, instead of bottling them up from time to time. I wish that my parents would just understand me better, instead of second guessing because that`s basically what they are doing right now. I hate pretending to be happy when I`m not & I hate pretending to paste on smile when I really don`t want to, but I guess I do it because I don`t want the people around me feeling the way I feel...

God, if this is part of your plan, then I`m willing to follow it, but it`s really tearing me apart...






*sigh*

LOLLIPOP

"Introducing the latest girl group from YG Entertainment, 2NE1, briefly known as 21 before. Collaboration with their seniors, Big Bang, singing Lollipop, where part of it was used for the LG Cyon Lollipop phone. 2NE1 comprises of Gong Min Ji, Sandara Park, CL and Park Bom with CL being the leader. 1 of the girl groups to look out for in 2009 definitely. A sampling before their full debut in May 2009."

via wondersmurf


it`s very colorful, upbeat & peppy. i`m not too into some of the outfits, but it`s catchy & i like it, especially TOP`s parts.



something to make me feel better :]
& thanks Kathy.

EFF THIS

I AM SO SICK & TIRED OF BEING PUT DOWN! & I AM SO SICK & TIRED OF HAVING TO FEEL LIKE I CAN`T ACCOMPLISH SH*T. I HATE THOSE LECTURES & I HATE FEELING LIKE I AM NOT WORTH ANYTHING. LEAVE MY LIFE ALONE!!!!

I KNOW ALREADY. OKAY?! I KNOW.














I HATE MY PARENTS RIGHT NOW.

SEASON 5

i am SO excited for this season of The Hills. i can`t believe this will be Lauren`s last season.



...too bad i have general meeting on Monday till 10ish..
AT LEAST I STILL HAVE MY LAPTOP & INTERNET :]

TAX

sales tax in California was raised up by 1% today.


now, the sales tax is 9.5%



being that it`s April Fools day & all.... i`m still waiting for the government to say,
"JUST KIDDINGG!!! "
but God knows that`s NOT going to happen anytime soon.




lols? mehh..

OPPS

Oops! UCSD Sends Acceptance E-mail to Wrong List

"UC San Diego -- a school for the smart ones, supposedly -- mistakenly congratulated nearly 29,000 applicants on their acceptance, according to university officials."

via Yahoo & NBC read more here

wow.. that`s sad.

SUCCESS!!

i just got my package today at work & this is the 2nd dog that i made. the first one i made, i made after work at the bank. i had to use my memory & see if i could remember how it was done but this one in the picture is the first one i made after refreshing my memory! yay! i`m so happy. at least i got one thing down. i made a sword & a crown too!! but the crown needs a bit of perfecting.. so now i have to think about what to make for my talent :]