GRANTED

[A PASSING MOMENT]

je suis désolé.

-- i never thought that i would experience this again.. i never thought it was possible to cry over someone so much & so sincerely. i never thought that i would make the same mistake twice.. have you ever wished that you haven`t done something regretful? i do. & many times too, but out of all the times in my life these two mistakes are the ones i regret more than anything.

sometimes i can`t believe that i`m so stupid & so inconsiderate. i`m so forgetful & i just let things slip off my tongue without thinking. i take things for granted too & i`m sorry i let that slip my mind. i guess it`s a good thing God had broken through my reality & shown me who i really was becoming because it was someone i didn`t like, especially not the way i acted. i`m sorry that i don`t remember & i hate that i can`t remember, but i`m sorry..

i don`t think i`ve ever fallen on my knees & actually cried this hard before.. i`ve only done this once & it was over another good friend, but the second time hurts just as much. & up until today, i had stored in so much blame for you that i hadn`t realized that it was my fault.. i`m sorry. i thought that i was always right & you were always wrong. i always knew that you would be there to listen, but me, i just brushed you off & i didn`t listen. i`m sorry i listened only when i wanted to & i`m so thankful that God gave me such a great friend like you. i`m glad God tore me up. i`m glad He opened my eyes to see who i was becoming. i`m glad He took my closest friend & used you to break me down because now i really do see. i`ve taken things for granted & i didn`t appreciate what & who i had. now comes the hard part..

apologizing.







& i will. tmr. i pray to God that there will still be a tmr when i wake up so i can apologize & i pray that it`s not too late.

LA WEEKEND

before the trip.
3rd quarter`s dinner @ ISA w/ co-workers. random ghosts on a tree outside of Kathy`s house. NUBI`s w/ Michael & their halloween decos.




waiting to board with Kathy :]




in LA!
chilling in Grace`s room. dinner at Maggiano's. @ Becca`s house. eating strawberry croissants at Cream Pan. Sunday worship at Newsong church. spam musubi at Ono`s. waiting at the airport.


Newsong Church in Irvine. just a clip of their worship. it was good but reminded us of YS. the message was on Purple Politics.

SOON.

i`ll post soon about the weekend :]




SIDE NEWS: Brandy`s new song, Long Distance, from her new album HUMAN












..shut up stomach.
hehe. hungry.

ALMOST

there.

counting down the days.

10/22
[ ] start packing
[ ] go to work
[ ] BOA dinner
[ ] study for Isys quiz



10/23
[ ] go to school
[ ] finish packing
[ ] get fro-yo
[ ] drop off @ Ben`s
[ ] econ homework.
[ ] print flight ticket
10/24
[ ] go to work
[ ] speed to airport
[ ] bum rush to security
[ ] dash to terminal
[ ] have a fun flight & HELLOO wonderful weekend :]


can`t wait. these 3 days will breeze by & then LA! hoorayyy










btw. cute random kids in costumes. lols

TO:

my p a r e n t s.

thank you & i love you both :]













that`s all i had to say today.

FOR

mainly Becca`s sake.



M Y D A Y.
- went to get a luggage. bought black flats for work. bought gold flats cause they were cute & on sale [...] i seriously think that Cheez-It are really addicting & of course my honey & lemon tea, which i will be drinking for the rest of FALL & WINTER :]

oh yes. & a semi-moded picture..but yes Becca, my hair is a bit lighter.

VICTOR

just wanted to congratulate my cousin Victor on getting married to Josephine :]



& second congrats goes to my cousin, Sharon & her husband, Nick, on their coming set of "TWIN" boys :] my niece Anthea is going to be a big sister in January :]


isn`t Anthea cute?
i love her :]

JEPET

sucks.


i spent my morning taking the JEPET test & let`s not talk about how i did.


*SIDE NOTE:

i made hash browns & it was crunchy & a bit burnt. just the way Becca likes em :]

BANANA

i want a frozen chocolate covered banana so badly.




stupid Safeway..of all days, WHY DID YOU RUN OUT?!?!








unbelievable.

PENGUINS

hope this makes your day Sean. lols.

TRAILER

the real trailer for T w i l i g h t.

SO MUCH

[A PASSING MOMENT.]

so much..

-- there`s just been so much things going on in my life. i still don`t have my priorities straight & i think i`m worst than i use to be. i pray that God will break me & make me into the person He made me to become. there`s so many things going on right now & i feel like things are so out of reach & out of perspective. in the past few years that i`ve been a Christian, i don`t think i`ve ever felt so completely lost & clueless before. i have no direction of where i`m going & i don`t want to say, but i feel like i`m aimlessly wandering & searching. the things i`ve done, i can`t seem to look at it the same way now. the things i haven`t done, i can`t seem to find a way to do them. i pray that God can help me hold on & help me make it through this broken road. it may seem like a long road, and i know it won`t end till God wants it to end, but i pray that this broken road will become a more clear road soon.



---

Y O U.
私は私の言うことがわかってほしい

COLD.

i think my room in the low 50s right now..




Michael says to "drink hot sauce"


... yeah. i like hot sauce in my bibimbap but not in drinking form.




still going without coffee. how long will i last?

i don`t know.



i miss you guys.
Annie.Ashley.Becca.Bonny.Grace.Pauline.Sean.Shaina.

TEASER #2

11.21.08

looking forward to it Josephine :]

WORDS

i want to randomly act out in an unintelligent way and cuss out colorful words.





ugh. some people just don`t get it.
quit taking things for granted.

DIAMOND IPOD

"the most expensive MP3 player.. $41,000 dollars."

via Yahoo


[...]


d*mn.

EVENTS

10/24 - LA trip for Becca`s ~$134&up

11/08 - Rose Dance $30


dang airline tickets..

goodbye savings. hello empty pockets & hellooo fun! :]

BELATED

a hello kitty cake :]



just wanted to thank those who wished me a happy birthday & just to update a little bit about it, my 20th birthday was simple, like all my other ones. i had a simple dinner with a Kathy, Sharon, and Sophia at Buca`s & we met up with Jennifer at Nubi`s on Friday. On Saturday i went to dinner with my family & went to watch a movie with Kathy & Michael.

i really want to thank my friends Jennifer, Kathy, Michael, Sharon, & Sophia for giving up their time to hang out with me for my birthday. i didn`t really celebrate my birthday traditionally, like with a cake or anything, but i`m glad i have friends who remember my birthday & are willing to hang out with me for my birthday. so THANKS guys, it really means a lot to me :]



ciao.

HAPPY SLIP!

yay! another Happy Slip moment :] lols. a good start to my 4 1/2 day weekend :]





Happy Birthday to me :]
.. t w e n t y..



wow. lols

BURGER?

lols. forgot to say happy OCTOBER :]












( btw. if you slow people haven`t already noticed. it`s really a pumpkin shaped like a burger with pumpkin seeds on the top )

BMA!!

old news, but yeh..
i finally found Becca on thecuttingchair.com


yay!! haha. 635 view counts :] popular. lols

INSANI.TEA?!

yes. i am officially q u i t t i n g COFFEE for a month & switching to TEA.

yes.
INSANI.TEA

get it?! lols.


...

*silence*

...




okay. i`m going to shut up now.

DIFFICULT

why are things so difficult?


if God made life simple..i wouldn`t learn anything. but because things are difficult.. i learn the HARD way. i can`t describe the way i feel right now, but it doesn`t feel all that great. it`s like being in a suffocating box & being completely confused & lost at the same time. it is really hard to endure.





coffee art.
..i want a cup with a message, but if i had a cup like that right now, i`d run away to the beach with it.

that`s how i want to spend my weekend right now :]





i want c o f f e e .. i NEED p r a y e r.

PAULINE.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!


i remember when you were still in the 8th grade :] i`m so glad we became good friends. some of my happiest memories where when i was hanging out with you & i guess that`s when my inner-weirdness came out :D thanks for being an awesome friend & mui mui :]


** keep an eye out for your mail this weekend (maybe possibly next monday) :]




CUPCAKE.

ACCIDENT.

finally posted some of the pictures from my September activities :]


extinguished flames. experiemental tattoo for #2. my"life" (planner). painted nails. SDC Lock-In. NUBI loitering (my favorite) :] Bonny`s return. Kelton`s pink slip. lols



yeh. so for those who don`t keep up with me on FB or Twitter, i almost accidentally burn down my house & for people like Sharon & Pauline, i decided to post the story for you :]

---

i was about to make ramen so i got some water into the pot and put it on the stove. while i was trying to put it on the stove, some water splashed out onto the inner stove.. so being the smart genius that i am, i totally forgot that there were two napkins ontop of that stove, telling ppl obviously not to use it.. so, as i was watching the water sink into the inner stove, i thought "Hey! why not turn on the inner stove and have the heat dry up the water so i don`t have to wipe it dry." so then i turned on the inner stove and *POOFFF!!* i start to see the napkins in flame, so i try to take them out and throw it into the sink but they kind of burned into halves so i had to go back and grab the remaining part of the napkins that burned into bigger flames. yeh. so when i finally put them all in the skin.. i thought to myself, "crap, i hope it doesn`t smell like burning paper in this house..otherwise..i`m dead. lols"

& yeh.. that`s how i almost burn down my house. lols.