LIFELESS

my current background.

lifeless. that`s what i call it, but then again, it seems pretty lively.

A PIECE OF MIND.

lately, i`ve just been feeling that way. nothing seems to really matter except the rush of emotions that washes up randomly. sometimes, i just feel like such a doll; lifeless & controlled by daily routines. nothing seems satisfying & everything tastes bittersweet. nothings everlasting & days seem to pass by without a purpose. things i see through my eyes are black & white with a bit of basic colors & i find myself constantly thinking "what am i doing?" it feels like someone gave me some anesthetics & now my brain & heart feels numb. i hate feeling numb. i think it`s the worst position to be in because you don`t feel pain or anything. & you can`t feel anything if someone does something to you. if you`re numb, it`s almost like being blind, you don`t know when, but it`s like you anxiously wait for death to come..but the point is, it`s not a great feeling & i hate it. no hopes & no dreams. i feel so handicapped.

i hope i snap out of it soon.





keep me in your prayers please.