GRANTED

[A PASSING MOMENT]

je suis désolé.

-- i never thought that i would experience this again.. i never thought it was possible to cry over someone so much & so sincerely. i never thought that i would make the same mistake twice.. have you ever wished that you haven`t done something regretful? i do. & many times too, but out of all the times in my life these two mistakes are the ones i regret more than anything.

sometimes i can`t believe that i`m so stupid & so inconsiderate. i`m so forgetful & i just let things slip off my tongue without thinking. i take things for granted too & i`m sorry i let that slip my mind. i guess it`s a good thing God had broken through my reality & shown me who i really was becoming because it was someone i didn`t like, especially not the way i acted. i`m sorry that i don`t remember & i hate that i can`t remember, but i`m sorry..

i don`t think i`ve ever fallen on my knees & actually cried this hard before.. i`ve only done this once & it was over another good friend, but the second time hurts just as much. & up until today, i had stored in so much blame for you that i hadn`t realized that it was my fault.. i`m sorry. i thought that i was always right & you were always wrong. i always knew that you would be there to listen, but me, i just brushed you off & i didn`t listen. i`m sorry i listened only when i wanted to & i`m so thankful that God gave me such a great friend like you. i`m glad God tore me up. i`m glad He opened my eyes to see who i was becoming. i`m glad He took my closest friend & used you to break me down because now i really do see. i`ve taken things for granted & i didn`t appreciate what & who i had. now comes the hard part..

apologizing.







& i will. tmr. i pray to God that there will still be a tmr when i wake up so i can apologize & i pray that it`s not too late.