ESCAPE.

it`s broken. it`s broken again..


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i want to run away. i want to leave & go somewhere else. i want to escape.

[A PASSING MOMENT]



i want to run away so badly.. i want to just sit at the beach & watch the sun set with my worries & then go up to a hill & watch the city view from there. i want time to freeze & so that i can breathe for just a bit from the suffocating pressure that life puts on all of us. i want so badly to drive away to an unknown place...

i found this bible verse as i was flipping through my new notebook..

" HOPE DOES NOT DISAPPOINT US, BECAUSE GOD HAS POURED OUT HIS LOVE INTO OUR HEARTS BY THE HOLY SPIRIT "

[ROMANS 5:5 NIV]

all this time i`ve been so disappointed because whenever i have high hopes, they turn into disappointments. i hate it. i absolutely do, but this verse says so much to me. i know God is never disappointing, He would never disappoint me.. but other people will. people will disappoint me if i put too much hope in them.. this is what the verse is telling me.

i have always had a hard time with trust. i believe trust is something a person earns & that`s how it goes in my book. i guess that`s why i have a hard time making "good friends" & also letting them go. i guess ever since i started putting hope into people, that`s when i started to realize the disappointment that i got from some of them. the most memorable time i put hope into someone was "Knight." i put so much hope into that person because that person was a really close friend of mine & i thought that i could really rely on that person to keep their word & promises. but time after time, i would always get disappointed because that person couldn`t hold on to their part of the deal...

but that`s why the verse is important to me. it holds up a promise that is never disappointing. this verse tells me that although people will always be disappointing, that`s okay because we are humans & we are not perfect; however, God is. God will never disappoint me..

He will never let me down, especially because He knows it hurts me so much when that happens. He hears me. He hears my heart & my soul. He knows what i`m thinking & understands my unspoken words. He knows i want to escape because i can`t handle the pain & pressure. He knows why i want to escape to the beach & watch the sunset take away my worries. He knows why i run away from Him, because i`m scared. He knows why i run back to Him, because i need Him. He knows why i cry because it just hurts deep inside.

yeup. God understands me. He knows me. He loves me. & He provides an escape for me.. He escapes with me..He is my escape.






















[FYI]..you already disappointed me.